Monday, December 18, 2006

tears and christmas don't go together!!!

right at this very moment, my mother's at the airport, picking up my sister, Gracie who's back from Mangalore for her christmas break. that means, the commencement of the christmas celebrations back home.
Michael Buble's "Home" just started playing, from the random shuffle on my iTunes.
and i'm bawling like a spoilt kid, like the spoilt kid i am.

I told myself rather than to feebly attempt to recreate Christmas for myself here, as i've tried and failed to recreate other events like my birthday and all, i'm not going to celebrate Christmas this year. It'd be just a holiday season which i'm going to enjoy, but not Christmas per se. i figured i am not going to settle for the best, of a tradition that's been alive in my family since ages ago. A Eurasian Catholic family is rich in traditions they concocted up and gathered through the years. Like my Mi's pineapple tarts that melt in your mouth, her pork roast that's just divine, enuff to abolish ANY diet and break any anorexia, my Mummy's moist chocolate cake and butter cookies, roast chicken, the presents, the grand feeling that accompanies the toiling bells that herald in the birth of Jesus... Parties that are followed by subsequent and more spontaneous parties. my Family. i think a feeble attempt would make me even sadder!

it's only the 17th. and this is already the 2nd time im crying...

4 comments:

Alexander said...

haha... its interesting to read about how christmas is a tradition that seems to just be disappearing as time goes by... :(... I suppose to me it never really meant much when I was younger.. but now, in hindsight, christmas is truly a wondrous day to behold... and yeah, i'm with you about simply thinking of it as just another holiday season.. although, i don't think i even have the mentality to think of this time as holiday.. :(.. haha.. :)..

but do not cry! :D... definitely, as your title says, it definitely does not go together.. christmas is a time of joy, of giving.. :)... although i suppose, there is an arguement that i've given way more than i should... :P... but let it be a time of joy, and let it be everyone whom you are surrounded by, not just family, but friends as well.. :P... to lift your spirits and to bring forth a new breath that will strengthen your courage and give you a new direction that turns out for the better :)...

haha.. and i don't speak this from experience.. its more of a spontaneous comment.. so.. uhm.. yeah :).. *grins* :)

alexander...

'Tis the season to be jolly... :).. and no matter where you are, that phrase alone, in your heart, that is to be jolly, is enough for everyone you know around the world, to receive your thoughts, no matter how distant or near they may be.. :P...

ok.. i better stop... must STUDY! :P haha... :)

ashkenne said...

*hugggggles*

Me misshes you!

Shen-Han said...

hey, you're back for christmas? aww that's so nice!

I hope you have a blessed Christmas and a fantastic year ahead!

Grace said...

eh sape alex ni???:p