there are many moments in life, when i'd stop and think of a nice way to publish it as my facebook status... but i'd stop myself and say 'who cares... like really who really cares..."
then i remember my blog...
:-) so i'm back...
things in the last two wks have really stressed me out so badly... a big bullying MO who really just fancies himself... colleagues who are so demanding, who actually wont really bother me, but now that i'm HO rep, it has become my problem... work... and of course to top it off, the ultimate envy...
i envy a lot of ppl for the way their life unfolded... i try to tell myself to be thankful for what i have... but honestly, i think anyone in my shoes would feel the same way... i see ppl find love and set off to a gorgeous land far far away to seek their fortune, sow seeds for a bountiful future harvest, and to try their luck at happiness together... and i can't help but envy them...
i am stuck in Klang, away from my home, my family... the boy is even further away... and i can't say i'm enjoying work... some superiors are encouraging, but some just make you wanna throw in the towel and walk off. and yet, i'm supposed to be thankful?how?
i tell myself this is what i've always prayer to God to please it be His will too..for me to be a doctor whose noble profession 'helps others'... yet this job is chipping away at my compassion, some days at an alarming rate that i feel inhumane.
i fear i've journeyed too far away from knowing who i am, what i want, and just what i am about. and envy is such a simple, easy emotion to indulge in...
Saturday, August 07, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
20th april
next month, would be the last forthnight of my medical posting (provided i dont do anything stupid to get extended)... and i'm gonna be take 7 days leave! though my dept only allows a max of 3 days at one go...:-) really looking forward to it, since the start of my medical posting i've gone to work the latest 6.50am for the past 3+ months, except for ONE miserable monday that i took off!
but the bf needs to ruin it. it isn't my fault that im only allowed a max of 3 days at one go. it isnt my fault that i don't get weekends off like HOs is taiping hospital. we're already in a LDR. that's something i don't believe in, yet i find myself in one...
today was really tiring... tilaga and i wanted a relaxed cubicle. i had just finished hectic g3 where i looked after 6-8 nephro patients and 9-10 dengue patients, clerk new dengue cases, do TDS reviews, run and set lines for other ppl's patients... then i came back to 7b only to take Acute cubicle... this time we took the first cubicle.. :-) but we had to retake a few patients' blood, then i get called to follow rounds in Acute cause the houseman in charge went missing... the specialist actually said 'thank you sarah' after that, so i felt extra gracious and took the ABG an bloods for one patient after getting an urgent USG doppler for that patient. my own cubicle's rounds ended at one... rushed to take bloods, fill in consent forms, OT lists, then rush for lunch (rather two rolls of mentos and a glass of iced tea!). only to get called by the ward, that a nephro MO wanted me to trace the results of a nephro patient who was admitted at 10am. thankfully i had already traced it. got consent for IJC insertion from her, before being called to the INR clinic, cause i've done it previously, i drag nora with me. and that finishes at 4. i had 4 discharges, and tila helped me settle their prescriptions but the summaries were still mine. i settled that, and then two news cases came in at around 5.20 and as everyone else disappeared or hid in the corner, doing discharges, i had to clerk them both! i left at 6.10. oh and i wanted a relaxing week...
but the bf needs to ruin it. it isn't my fault that im only allowed a max of 3 days at one go. it isnt my fault that i don't get weekends off like HOs is taiping hospital. we're already in a LDR. that's something i don't believe in, yet i find myself in one...
today was really tiring... tilaga and i wanted a relaxed cubicle. i had just finished hectic g3 where i looked after 6-8 nephro patients and 9-10 dengue patients, clerk new dengue cases, do TDS reviews, run and set lines for other ppl's patients... then i came back to 7b only to take Acute cubicle... this time we took the first cubicle.. :-) but we had to retake a few patients' blood, then i get called to follow rounds in Acute cause the houseman in charge went missing... the specialist actually said 'thank you sarah' after that, so i felt extra gracious and took the ABG an bloods for one patient after getting an urgent USG doppler for that patient. my own cubicle's rounds ended at one... rushed to take bloods, fill in consent forms, OT lists, then rush for lunch (rather two rolls of mentos and a glass of iced tea!). only to get called by the ward, that a nephro MO wanted me to trace the results of a nephro patient who was admitted at 10am. thankfully i had already traced it. got consent for IJC insertion from her, before being called to the INR clinic, cause i've done it previously, i drag nora with me. and that finishes at 4. i had 4 discharges, and tila helped me settle their prescriptions but the summaries were still mine. i settled that, and then two news cases came in at around 5.20 and as everyone else disappeared or hid in the corner, doing discharges, i had to clerk them both! i left at 6.10. oh and i wanted a relaxing week...
let's bring some life back to this blog...
ok, so it has been ages...
i've started working life for 6 months and in that span of time, i've:
a. met a nasty accident on the MRRR involving a post call HO who fell asleep on the wheel, a huge truck, 20 stitches and scars that are gonna last a lifetime
b. i've done the dreaded calls but seriously believe i age 5 years with each call i do, esp in medical. an again, there are scars that are gonna last a lifetime
c. have put on 3 kgs since med school, so clothes don't fit as well, but at the end of the each day, food is how i drown my sorrow...
d. have met a whole bunch of new people, many in here as comrades (friends for a REASON: we need to get thru HOship, or perhaps SEASON, my friends in Medical differ from those in Paeds, but i really dunno if any are gonna last a lifetime
e. lives alone in Klang, to be able to have time to sleep, but is really losing out on life...
I've completed my first posting in Paeds, and currently have less than a month left to go in Medical... :-) so how that's that.
so how have u been?
i've started working life for 6 months and in that span of time, i've:
a. met a nasty accident on the MRRR involving a post call HO who fell asleep on the wheel, a huge truck, 20 stitches and scars that are gonna last a lifetime
b. i've done the dreaded calls but seriously believe i age 5 years with each call i do, esp in medical. an again, there are scars that are gonna last a lifetime
c. have put on 3 kgs since med school, so clothes don't fit as well, but at the end of the each day, food is how i drown my sorrow...
d. have met a whole bunch of new people, many in here as comrades (friends for a REASON: we need to get thru HOship, or perhaps SEASON, my friends in Medical differ from those in Paeds, but i really dunno if any are gonna last a lifetime
e. lives alone in Klang, to be able to have time to sleep, but is really losing out on life...
I've completed my first posting in Paeds, and currently have less than a month left to go in Medical... :-) so how that's that.
so how have u been?
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Chronicles of Baby Ju's journey
Pre-Juliette
:-) We chose baby J on a Friday, the 7th of AUgust 2009. We went to Poochie Poochie (ehehe) in Puchong and met Anne, whose poodle was 'raped' by a west highland terrier, giving Baby Juliette and her brother. There were 3 other female brown poodles with the siblings in their play pen. WHen i walked into the shop, baby J came to me but i didntknow it was her at the moment, so i just played with the nearest puppy, and turns out it was our puppy! there were also 3 retrievers but they grow waaaaay too big to be a house dog... She had a vaccination on Saturday, so we decided to leave her for a day for Anne to watch for a fever.
Day One
We collected her on Sunday... SHe was such a good girl, she slept the whole trip home,and i had read abt how puppies would get antsy on the way home, how we need to soothe them etc. but she just slept! :-) We were told to immediately put her on newspapers to pee the moment we arrived home, and she peed on the newspaper! the clever girl!
but that night... she cried and cried, almost thru the night. i was up to rush downstairs to check out why she was crying until 2 am, then dan and mom were woken up.
Day Two
I woke up at 7 to bring her outside to eat and poo, she ate like normal and did her business like a good girl... She let me clean her teeth, her ears. and she has gotten used to being whisked into the bathroom to wash bum and paws whenever she poos! :-)
But she started yelping once mummy woke up. Mum was very tired. and so was Juliette! she slept almost thru the day! :-) she's such a darling. She walked around a bit while we did chores.. :-) short busybody!Then we brought her to the vet.
But she didnt eat anything anymore. at night we were worried and tried to feed her some dog biscuits instead, she took some but still had no appetite! i began to really worry abt Baby J.
I didn't know if Mummy would keep her at this rate...i put a ticking clock by her play pen,hoping against hope that it'd work this time... it was too late, i love her too much to lose her!
Day Three
I woke up and rushed down to see if she was ok. i pacified her a bit then rushed upstairs for mum to officially wake up and put Juliette's stuff into MUm's routine. i was anxious to find out if she woke anyone up during the night, cause i sleep like a log, i can't hear ANYTHING!
Turns out she didnt make any noise! tried getting her used to the harness, cleaned her teeth and ears and mummy combs her... i tried the ouch method to get her to now nibble me, and she stopped immediately, only to climb my hands, and lick me! awwwww
SHe has a temper too, dan was playing with her using her towel, but when she couldnt reach it, she barked at him, and when he gave her her towel, she took it and walked off! hehe She loves her teddy too, sleeping with her head on teddy a lot! Thankfully, she ate today...
Day Four
Baby J keep quiet throughout the night!! yay! but she vomited a bit, mum thinks it is from the bone mum gave daddy to give her when daddy leaves in the morning, cause she gets restless whenever the keys jingle and we open the door!
i put her outside to eat and pee while mummy cleaned her indoor play pen. Then we decided to bathe her! she climbed all over me and i was wetter than her at the end of the bath! hehe After her bath, she played with a dry towel mummy gave her and she was dry in no time! :-) she slept with her head on teddy and even when i put her purple towel over her body, she didnt move! :-)
Then mummy wanted to see Mi, and we packed Baby J, in the car. she slept in the crate, which i left open but she went into it on her own! She responds to 'Ju-ju' and she absolutely loves to pose. usually she'll go towards and try to bite anything she sees,except for the camera, she will just hold her pose for a few seconds! Whenever mummy navigates corners, she'd get thrown around her crate.. hehe yet she won't whine or yelp! such a darling! 
in Mi's hse, mi and papa let her wander around, like how typical grandparents ar... She went to pee in Mi's bathroom immediately upon arrival. then she wandered around! :-) managed to catch her poo cause she went just near a newspaper but not quite on it.She went towards ben to play with him but he seems really scared of her, he'd run away and she'd just chase him! :-)
She slept on the way home too :-) she's a really easy travel companion!
Baby J is in the hospital... Please get well and come home soon, pretty girl.. Mummy, Daddy, Che che sarah, Kor kor even che gracie miss u so much... and love u too!!
:-) We chose baby J on a Friday, the 7th of AUgust 2009. We went to Poochie Poochie (ehehe) in Puchong and met Anne, whose poodle was 'raped' by a west highland terrier, giving Baby Juliette and her brother. There were 3 other female brown poodles with the siblings in their play pen. WHen i walked into the shop, baby J came to me but i didntknow it was her at the moment, so i just played with the nearest puppy, and turns out it was our puppy! there were also 3 retrievers but they grow waaaaay too big to be a house dog... She had a vaccination on Saturday, so we decided to leave her for a day for Anne to watch for a fever.
Day One
We collected her on Sunday... SHe was such a good girl, she slept the whole trip home,and i had read abt how puppies would get antsy on the way home, how we need to soothe them etc. but she just slept! :-) We were told to immediately put her on newspapers to pee the moment we arrived home, and she peed on the newspaper! the clever girl!
but that night... she cried and cried, almost thru the night. i was up to rush downstairs to check out why she was crying until 2 am, then dan and mom were woken up.
Day Two
I woke up at 7 to bring her outside to eat and poo, she ate like normal and did her business like a good girl... She let me clean her teeth, her ears. and she has gotten used to being whisked into the bathroom to wash bum and paws whenever she poos! :-)
But she started yelping once mummy woke up. Mum was very tired. and so was Juliette! she slept almost thru the day! :-) she's such a darling. She walked around a bit while we did chores.. :-) short busybody!Then we brought her to the vet.
But she didnt eat anything anymore. at night we were worried and tried to feed her some dog biscuits instead, she took some but still had no appetite! i began to really worry abt Baby J.
I didn't know if Mummy would keep her at this rate...i put a ticking clock by her play pen,hoping against hope that it'd work this time... it was too late, i love her too much to lose her!
Day Three
I woke up and rushed down to see if she was ok. i pacified her a bit then rushed upstairs for mum to officially wake up and put Juliette's stuff into MUm's routine. i was anxious to find out if she woke anyone up during the night, cause i sleep like a log, i can't hear ANYTHING!
Turns out she didnt make any noise! tried getting her used to the harness, cleaned her teeth and ears and mummy combs her... i tried the ouch method to get her to now nibble me, and she stopped immediately, only to climb my hands, and lick me! awwwww
SHe has a temper too, dan was playing with her using her towel, but when she couldnt reach it, she barked at him, and when he gave her her towel, she took it and walked off! hehe She loves her teddy too, sleeping with her head on teddy a lot! Thankfully, she ate today...
Day Four
Baby J keep quiet throughout the night!! yay! but she vomited a bit, mum thinks it is from the bone mum gave daddy to give her when daddy leaves in the morning, cause she gets restless whenever the keys jingle and we open the door!
i put her outside to eat and pee while mummy cleaned her indoor play pen. Then we decided to bathe her! she climbed all over me and i was wetter than her at the end of the bath! hehe After her bath, she played with a dry towel mummy gave her and she was dry in no time! :-) she slept with her head on teddy and even when i put her purple towel over her body, she didnt move! :-)
Then mummy wanted to see Mi, and we packed Baby J, in the car. she slept in the crate, which i left open but she went into it on her own! She responds to 'Ju-ju' and she absolutely loves to pose. usually she'll go towards and try to bite anything she sees,except for the camera, she will just hold her pose for a few seconds! Whenever mummy navigates corners, she'd get thrown around her crate.. hehe yet she won't whine or yelp! such a darling! 
in Mi's hse, mi and papa let her wander around, like how typical grandparents ar... She went to pee in Mi's bathroom immediately upon arrival. then she wandered around! :-) managed to catch her poo cause she went just near a newspaper but not quite on it.She went towards ben to play with him but he seems really scared of her, he'd run away and she'd just chase him! :-)She slept on the way home too :-) she's a really easy travel companion!
Baby J is in the hospital... Please get well and come home soon, pretty girl.. Mummy, Daddy, Che che sarah, Kor kor even che gracie miss u so much... and love u too!!
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
First we went to church...
Mummy prayed...
Dan and i posed...
Then Dan slept...
Daddy slept, and Mummy texted...
Then we came home, Mummy's turn to pose...
Then we played Little Big Planet!!
Dan and i posed...
Then Dan slept...
Daddy slept, and Mummy texted...
Then we came home, Mummy's turn to pose...
Then we played Little Big Planet!!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
My saturday
Han left for hokkaido today...
but b4 that, we headed to sunway for steamboat. as we were early, we decided to try this new steamboat place.. it's 30 bucks per person, but for the month of july there's a buy 1 free 1 promotion.. it was really worth it, there was salmon, cod fish, fresh oysters and australian beef. on top of the usual steamboat fare...
have a safe trip, darling...
Friday, July 10, 2009
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